Boo Basket

 Life is full of surprises of hardships and unexplainable things, I am currently 22 living in a city for which I did not grow up in, which leads me to feel constantly overwhelmed and unable to fit in or find my place in society, another lost soul in a big city. Sometimes I feel I should return to my small yet quant home town, but yet what would I do if I did? Go back to the same old habits, return to the same old guys and drink to keep myself sane, maybe it's not such a bad idea. My life would definitely be more interesting than it is now. But in saying that those same old habits were the reason I left, I needed something different, something new, something exciting which evidently is not in the most expensive city in this country. Insane how that works isn't it. Sometimes I imagine myself on a farm with a beautifully built cottage and a garden that complements it, enough animals to never be lonely and enough land to never be bored, to ride a horse and have a library filled with romance books to live out my days whether I'm a spinster or married I would be enthused either way. The only way to escape reality.